as the days go on

wow... it's only been less than 3 days and we started being close again... i don't know what would happen cause later tonight we're going out to catch a movie... and it would just be the two of us... i'm a little scared cause frankly i don't know what i would say or do... and i don't know what he's going to say or do... and that scares the living hell out of me... but then again it's just a movie right? the truth is there's still a small part in me that's hoping that we would get back together... but i'm not sure if i still would want that or not... i'm super confused... i just hope he still feels the same way... nothing much to blog about... well i have to go and get ready for my "date"... i'll update you guys on what happens when i get home... wish me luck...

love so sad

wow... it's just been over a month and it ends... i don't know where to start with this entry... our relationship never was really close to perfect but i thought everything was okay... i guess i was wrong... last night when he told me he wanted to end things it felt like the world came crashing over me... i didn't expect that... i mean just a few hours before he texted we were together having fun... laughing and teasing each other... no one expected any of it... of course i couldn't do anything about it... if that's what he wanted i could do nothing but agree to it... i wouldn't want to beg him to consider things because i don't want to force him in to anything he doesn't want... he wanted us to be friends... of course i didn't agree to it cause what he did hurt me so much... so i was up all night crying over him... and by crying i mean CRYING!!! the next day in school i was looking for him... not cause i wanted to see him(well i did want to see him)... i wanted to return the baller he gave me that had his name on it... and i wanted to talk to him about the stuff he said and i wanted to talk about the stuff he didn't mention but was really important... well he didn't attend any of his classes and the truth is i really felt the pain of how much i miss him... of how much i wanted to be near him... of how much i wanted him... when i got home i couldn't help myself so i texted him... i told him that i'd accept what he wanted and i'd be friends with him... it was better than nothing... so now after a couple of hours i'm here blogging about it... do you think i did the right thing? i mean forgetting about the pain it causes me and just trying my best to be a friend? or should i end everything?

HELLO WORLD!!!

wow... i haven't done this for a long time... so I'm not really sure where to start...

there's not much stuff to do anymore so i started doing this blog thing again... hope you enjoy reading my entries... most i guess are dramatic and stuff... specially when it's about my love life... hahaha...